3. Write about a time you considered moving to another state.
I considered moving to Pennsylvania. Maile was a brand new baby and while I loved her SO much instantly, I also couldn’t stop crying.
Crying because I couldn’t believe I created her yes, but also crying because…I just didn’t know why.
The nurse had warned me that this could happen. When your hormones go crazy, your body painfully recovers from birth, you’re not sleeping and you’re feeling overwhelmed by the sheer weight of the responsibility you hold in your arms, crying totally makes sense.
I remember taking her to the hospital for her two-week check-up and looking at Pat and saying, “Do you sometimes wish you could just keep driving forever? Like to Pennsylvania? And not stop? And just start over?”
He laughed at the suggestion and we had an entire conversation about how long it would take to get there, what it would be like to live there, and at what point our families would notice we were gone. Funny how you can have a seemingly light conversation with someone and yet deep down feel like crawling out of your own skin.
Pennsylvania sounded nice, but I’m glad we stayed.
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The Prompts:
1. Share about a friend who was there just when you needed them most.
2. Write about something you remember wanting more than ever for Christmas.
3. Write about a time you considered moving to another state.
4. Write about how you plan to spend your holidays this year.
5. Create and share your own Christmas list.
6. List the top 7 things that bring holiday cheer.
John Holton says
I feel for you… postpartum depression is nasty business.
Pennsylvania? Why there? Just curious.
Mama Kat says
I’m not sure why Pennsylvania other than that it felt completely obscure. No one would think to search for us in Pennsylvania. We had no ties and it was far far away from the responsibility of being a parent. Or so I thought.
Patty Sparano says
Wow, memories of PPD, and not good ones.
Oddly enough, mine was at its worst after our son was born, maybe because I knew that would be the last baby in our lives and it added to the overall depression.
I’m with John Holton…why Pennsylvania? Our inquiring minds have a need to know!
Mama Kat says
I was a little sad after each birth I think, but the first was the worst since I really had no idea what I was doing. That adjustment from zero to one was not easy! I have no idea what prompted Pennsylvania. I think it just sounded as far away as the road could possibly take us in that moment.